Dear Reader,
Last week was CRAZY! But amazing. Here are the highlights:
1. We were given a tribute dinner and it was amazing! Hundreds of people came and several people spoke. It was beautiful and one of my favorite memories will be of everyone giving my husband a standing ovation.
2. My husband gave his farewell address to the faculty and staff senates. He said the loveliest things about me and asked them to acknowledge my contributions. They gave me a standing ovation which, I must say, was very, very nice.
3. I showed the house to three of the final candidates. Two if them would be disasters. Were pretty sure the wife of the other one won't come. The last one will come on Tuesday.
4. I do have Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome. It was so obvious to the doctor that he didn't need to do the expensive genetic testing. You know what the treatment for it is?? Don't do anything that can damage your joints or tendons! It's a relief to have a diagnosis.
5. I may not have stage 3 kidney disease. And if I do, it is probably not the type that comes from making so many antibodies that they clog your filters and kill them. The nephrologist is running several more tests, but that much was encouraging.
6. I had another nightmare about my mother, but in it my brothers were there, too, and I went off at her. I told her that she was mentally ill (she was in a hysterical rage) even though my brothers wouldn't acknowledge it. That she wouldn't do anything to help herself and that I wasn't responsible for her anymore. So, me being strong with her in a nightmare represents a significant shift.
7. I had a dream where I was back in my childhood home. These used to be straight out horrible nightmares, but have slowly changed over the years. The first big change was when my husband was in the house with me. That was huge. But this time, everyone was there, including my friend who knows about this blog. You know who you are! :-). I was cooking a big Thanksgiving dinner for everyone. So that was pretty amazing.
I think that brings you up to date with pretty broad strokes.
I've been being insanely tired! I fell asleep last night by 11:30 without Xanax and slept for almost 12 hours! Still slept drying the day some.
I have a busy week ahead. I'm giving two dinners, showing the house again, going with my mother to a doctors appointment, and we will have our last two commencement ceremonies and then well be done! Hard to believe!
I've planned a tight schedule for tomorrow, but forgot about this appointment. And I'm pretty sure my mother will spread it out to include lunch. But I'm okay with that if she wants to. I'm just hoping I can thoroughly wakeup tomorrow.
I hope you have a great week ahead of you!
Cheers!
Lisa
Sunday, May 4, 2014
Wednesday, April 30, 2014
Day 13 - Just saw that this was still a draft.
Dear Reader,
I was pretty discouraged yesterday and today. But on the way home from a doctor's office, the Mandisa song, "Overcomer" came on the radio. I've not been a huge fan of the song, but it really meant a lot to me today and encouraged me a lot. I had what I call "Holy Spirit goose bumps" all over me, even on my face!
Here's what's going on. I saw my doctor about my kidneys. He's concerned because this is a pretty sudden dive in filtration rate. In October, I think, it was 60. Then it's down to 45 five months later. The renal ultrasound came back normal, so no tumors or blockages. He is doing a pretty big work up so that all the tests will have been done when I see the nephrologist so he can start right in on everything. I have to do a 24-hour urine collection, which is always FUN! Nothing quite like storing your urine in a jug in the refrigerator!! He said he hoped I wasn't getting into a renal-immune something something. I asked what that us and, apparently, if your immune system is over-activated and making tons of antibodies, you can actually clog up the little filters in your kidneys. Good grief. There was some other things also, but it's late and I'm tired and don't reall ywant to go into it all.
I saw the orthopedic doc today and got two cortisone shots in the first joint of my big toe. LOTS of fun! I didn't cuss, but I sure did blaspheme once! When he did the second shot I told him I wasn't going to blaspheme that time, but I was going to cuss like a Texan! I then explained to him that any real Texan makes a two-syllable word out of "shit"! Happily enough, though, I didn't even cuss with the second shot. I've got osteo-arthritis and he told me that some little nodes you cam see in my thumb joints are some complicated-name nodes that means I have the genetics for it. I think it's really weird that it causes you to grow more bone cells. That's what forms the spurs and the gnarled knuckles old people have.
I am just constantly exhausted. I had to show the house again today. Was not impressed with the candidate or his wife. At least it wasn't as distressing as it was yesterday. If anything it's highlighting to me how fantastic the house we will be going to is!
Tomorrow is an insane day. I show the house at 11:00. Meet some people in my husband's office for a goodbye coffee at 1:30, then there is a farewell reception and a goodbye speech at 3:30. At 6:00 there will be another reception and art show, and at 7:00 there will be a tribute dinner! Wow! Wish I hadn't written that all out right before going to bed! Hope I'm able to go to sleep now.
I did get some work done in my study tonight. There was a reception and dinner, but I didn't go to it. I stayed home and worked on that. Soooo veeeery close to being finished! Surely I'll be finished by the end of the weekend! I even got some more work done on the winter/summer clothes.
I haven't talked to my daughter for two days. I'd be getting worried, but she's posted on Facebook so I know she's ok.
Tired, tired, tired!!
Good night!
Lisa
P.S. The tornado in Mississippi missed my brother by less than two miles. I hope neither you nor your loved ones have been harmed by the rash of tornados we've had this week.
I saw the orthopedic doc today and got two cortisone shots in the first joint of my big toe. LOTS of fun! I didn't cuss, but I sure did blaspheme once! When he did the second shot I told him I wasn't going to blaspheme that time, but I was going to cuss like a Texan! I then explained to him that any real Texan makes a two-syllable word out of "shit"! Happily enough, though, I didn't even cuss with the second shot. I've got osteo-arthritis and he told me that some little nodes you cam see in my thumb joints are some complicated-name nodes that means I have the genetics for it. I think it's really weird that it causes you to grow more bone cells. That's what forms the spurs and the gnarled knuckles old people have.
I am just constantly exhausted. I had to show the house again today. Was not impressed with the candidate or his wife. At least it wasn't as distressing as it was yesterday. If anything it's highlighting to me how fantastic the house we will be going to is!
Tomorrow is an insane day. I show the house at 11:00. Meet some people in my husband's office for a goodbye coffee at 1:30, then there is a farewell reception and a goodbye speech at 3:30. At 6:00 there will be another reception and art show, and at 7:00 there will be a tribute dinner! Wow! Wish I hadn't written that all out right before going to bed! Hope I'm able to go to sleep now.
I did get some work done in my study tonight. There was a reception and dinner, but I didn't go to it. I stayed home and worked on that. Soooo veeeery close to being finished! Surely I'll be finished by the end of the weekend! I even got some more work done on the winter/summer clothes.
I haven't talked to my daughter for two days. I'd be getting worried, but she's posted on Facebook so I know she's ok.
Tired, tired, tired!!
Good night!
Lisa
P.S. The tornado in Mississippi missed my brother by less than two miles. I hope neither you nor your loved ones have been harmed by the rash of tornados we've had this week.
Tuesday, April 29, 2014
Day 14 - Ugh
Dear Reader,
I did not like today. I'm pretty discouraged and don't want to talk about it.
Later, dude.
Lisa
I did not like today. I'm pretty discouraged and don't want to talk about it.
Later, dude.
Lisa
Monday, April 28, 2014
Day 15 - Very Short Update
Dear Reader,
My joint is back in place! It's all very tender, but back where it belongs. Just woke up that way.
We were threatened with tornados and severe weather all day today. Schools let out at 1:00, but not a thing has happened! I did go out and get all my errands done to try to beat the rain. It never came, but I'm glad to have finished everything.
I got a fair amount of work done today, but I still have SO much to get done before I show the house tomorrow.
Picture got super angry/upset at my mom this evening because she started going on about how obamacare has death panels set up to decide who gets treatment and who doesn't. Just drove me crazy!
My brother in Mississippi had a tornado go nearby, but it missed him by two miles.
No exercise today, but I did lay down and sleep again this afternoon because I was so tired.
I have to show the house tomorrow, go to two doctor's appointments, get a manicure and go to a dinner, so it's going to be a super tight day,
Here's to survival!
Lisa
My joint is back in place! It's all very tender, but back where it belongs. Just woke up that way.
We were threatened with tornados and severe weather all day today. Schools let out at 1:00, but not a thing has happened! I did go out and get all my errands done to try to beat the rain. It never came, but I'm glad to have finished everything.
I got a fair amount of work done today, but I still have SO much to get done before I show the house tomorrow.
Picture got super angry/upset at my mom this evening because she started going on about how obamacare has death panels set up to decide who gets treatment and who doesn't. Just drove me crazy!
My brother in Mississippi had a tornado go nearby, but it missed him by two miles.
No exercise today, but I did lay down and sleep again this afternoon because I was so tired.
I have to show the house tomorrow, go to two doctor's appointments, get a manicure and go to a dinner, so it's going to be a super tight day,
Here's to survival!
Lisa
Sunday, April 27, 2014
Day 16 - The Calm Before the Storm!
Dear Reader,
It's 11:06 pm and I am in the tub trying to relax my back and washing my hair. I got lured into buying the Wen products and then kept forgetting to cancel them. So I'm trying to use them up now. They're okay, but doing your hair takes a good bit longer. Plus pumping this container over wind over hurts my shoulder pretty bad. If you don't know what I'm talking about, it's the "wash your hair without using soap!" Products that will pop up on your screen from time to time. Anyway ...
I've spent some time thinking about how I want tonight to go and this is my conclusion: I don't want to stay up ridiculously late which means that I don't waste time on the evil iPad. So I feed the dogs and cat, set out my clothes for tomorrow, take my supplements, neaten up the bed, and even prepared my to-do list for tomorrow. Then I got in the tub, did my hair, washed my face, turned on my iPad and came straight to this page and started writing! I WISH!
I got immediately distracted by some pages open on my browser which had collages on them. I have to replace three photo collages and am looking for replacements. Since I don't like the current look of all the various small frames all joined together, it has not been easy finding what I want. So, I got caught up in that some and then started looking at fabrics! I knew that was a dark hole so I did get that turned off quickly!
I got into a lot of bad habits after I quit taking ambien and the insomnia problems from tension were so bad. I developed a lot of routines that kept my brain busy until I finally reached a pint of exhaustion and knew I could go to sleep. I did this because the option was to turn off the lights and go rigid with tension and be miserable. But I am going to sleep much better now, but now I have to break all my bad habits and rituals I used to do to be able to sleep.
But, I'm trying to work on REST! Being rested! Resting! Such a new word in my vocabulary that I have to practice using it! I did pretty well this weekend I think. I took a nap yesterday and slept for two hours, and I took a nap today and slept for an hour and a half. I'm pretty tired now, but the only thing I have left to do is read my Bible after I finish my bath and drying my hair, etc. it's already 11:23, though!
Oh, I also got caught up in wrong on all the boxes of clothes I'm going through in the hall as I empty out my winter and autumn clothes from the closet. Probably spent about 20 minutes doing that until I remembered - oh, yeah! I want to go to bed tonight!
My husband preached at a black church this morning. The pastor is a special friend to, and he asks my husband to speak from time to time. Usually he asks him to come teach, but this time it was to preach. And, you know, every white preacher preaches better in a black church, and my husband was no exception! The only problem was that the service was about two and a half hours long! At the end everyone came up to hug us and tell us goodbye. The pastor did something really soecial. He asked one of the women and one of the men to come up and convey their on behalf of the church, and it was very moving.
We got home and I started making lunch when our son came in the door. Usually the two kids show up together on one weekend afternoon. But this a time one came on Saturday and the other came on Sunday! So I got no work done today either. Don't worry. I know what spending time with them is more important than working ... I'm just saying! I made grits for breakfast which I served with orange juice and fresh strawberries. Then I made fish tacos for lunch with some fresh pico de gallo I made. Yum!! Then we went out to eat and I had veggies. I started to order some spiked lemonade, but my husband had a fit, so I didn't. And I didn't get popcorn at the movie or eat all my fries. So I did make some good choices for my kidneys: less protein today, less salt, and no alcohol. That's all I know to do right now. I'm still not hardly peeing, though and I don't know what's up with that!
After dinner, we went to see Captain America. Am I a bad person if I thought it was pretty boring?? It was better than the Johnny Depp movie we saw last week at least! You just have to have the dry humor they incorporate into the Iron Man movies! And Captain America doesn't have any of the angst that Iron Man has or the inner conflict, so he is a more shallow character. And even though Scarlett Johansson is in Captain America, there is ZERO sexual tension. Shall I continue offering my sage thoughts about movies based on comic books?? :-). I think not!
We have some major storms moving in at midnight but, seeing as how it is now 11:41, I don't think I'm going to make my goal of being asleep before then!
You know I said yesterday that I'm all about work? Well here's how MUCH I'm all about work. My pelvic joint is out of place. I've had very painful muscle spasms and been in nearly constant pain. I can't lift my foot up from the floor by more than a foot because the joint is out and it just won't work. I can't lift it more than 9 inches without my joint hurting really bad. BUT ... I had to really consider whether or not to take the time tomorrow to go see the chiropractor! I thought, "The pain is at a bearable level now, it's bad but bearable, and you've got SO MUCH WORK to do tomorrow! I squashed that thought, but it took some effort!
I had a random thought during the movie. You know I demolished my nails again last night (?) at the Mexican food restaurant. Well, as I was sitting there is suddenly thought, "Why would you want to destroy part of your body because you are feeling stressed? This is your body! Why would you want to tear your nail off and bite off your cuticles. You want to care for your body, not tear it up!" So that was a new thought. Instead of just, "Quit doing this! This is awful! Look how terrible your nails look! What's wrong with you that you do this all the time???!" So, well see if I can roll with that and quit tearing up my nails because I love myself and I love my body and I want to take care of it well.
12:01 am. I'm running a tub of fresh water to rinse my hair and body well in clear water. I've shaved, conditioned my hair and exfoliated my skin - I love doing that! I feels so awesome smooth after that, and have a facial mask on. The only problem, though, is NOW I'M HUNGRY! I have some gluten-free bread downstairs so I guess I'll go toast some before I go to bed.
Tonight is the calm before the storm. This week is unbelievable. Farewell receptions, speeches, dinners, my husbands art show, having the direct reports over for dinner, having coffee with a couple special to us, and three of the candidates are coming in for interviews. I want to go to one interview of each, just as a spider on the wall, and then I have to give them a our of the house on Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday! Plus I think ice got some doctor appointments thrown in here and there along with a mandatory manicure! I have to go to the grocery store because I'm completely out of pet food and apple sauce: my last stop-gap before starvation! I dint think I've ever run out of apple sauce before!
So, since the week is utterly impossible, I think I'm just going to take it in stride and star calm. That's the dream anyway! Have a great week yourself! It looks like practically half the country is in for some really bad weather, so stay safe!
Cheers,
Lisa
It's 11:06 pm and I am in the tub trying to relax my back and washing my hair. I got lured into buying the Wen products and then kept forgetting to cancel them. So I'm trying to use them up now. They're okay, but doing your hair takes a good bit longer. Plus pumping this container over wind over hurts my shoulder pretty bad. If you don't know what I'm talking about, it's the "wash your hair without using soap!" Products that will pop up on your screen from time to time. Anyway ...
I've spent some time thinking about how I want tonight to go and this is my conclusion: I don't want to stay up ridiculously late which means that I don't waste time on the evil iPad. So I feed the dogs and cat, set out my clothes for tomorrow, take my supplements, neaten up the bed, and even prepared my to-do list for tomorrow. Then I got in the tub, did my hair, washed my face, turned on my iPad and came straight to this page and started writing! I WISH!
I got immediately distracted by some pages open on my browser which had collages on them. I have to replace three photo collages and am looking for replacements. Since I don't like the current look of all the various small frames all joined together, it has not been easy finding what I want. So, I got caught up in that some and then started looking at fabrics! I knew that was a dark hole so I did get that turned off quickly!
I got into a lot of bad habits after I quit taking ambien and the insomnia problems from tension were so bad. I developed a lot of routines that kept my brain busy until I finally reached a pint of exhaustion and knew I could go to sleep. I did this because the option was to turn off the lights and go rigid with tension and be miserable. But I am going to sleep much better now, but now I have to break all my bad habits and rituals I used to do to be able to sleep.
But, I'm trying to work on REST! Being rested! Resting! Such a new word in my vocabulary that I have to practice using it! I did pretty well this weekend I think. I took a nap yesterday and slept for two hours, and I took a nap today and slept for an hour and a half. I'm pretty tired now, but the only thing I have left to do is read my Bible after I finish my bath and drying my hair, etc. it's already 11:23, though!
Oh, I also got caught up in wrong on all the boxes of clothes I'm going through in the hall as I empty out my winter and autumn clothes from the closet. Probably spent about 20 minutes doing that until I remembered - oh, yeah! I want to go to bed tonight!
My husband preached at a black church this morning. The pastor is a special friend to, and he asks my husband to speak from time to time. Usually he asks him to come teach, but this time it was to preach. And, you know, every white preacher preaches better in a black church, and my husband was no exception! The only problem was that the service was about two and a half hours long! At the end everyone came up to hug us and tell us goodbye. The pastor did something really soecial. He asked one of the women and one of the men to come up and convey their on behalf of the church, and it was very moving.
We got home and I started making lunch when our son came in the door. Usually the two kids show up together on one weekend afternoon. But this a time one came on Saturday and the other came on Sunday! So I got no work done today either. Don't worry. I know what spending time with them is more important than working ... I'm just saying! I made grits for breakfast which I served with orange juice and fresh strawberries. Then I made fish tacos for lunch with some fresh pico de gallo I made. Yum!! Then we went out to eat and I had veggies. I started to order some spiked lemonade, but my husband had a fit, so I didn't. And I didn't get popcorn at the movie or eat all my fries. So I did make some good choices for my kidneys: less protein today, less salt, and no alcohol. That's all I know to do right now. I'm still not hardly peeing, though and I don't know what's up with that!
After dinner, we went to see Captain America. Am I a bad person if I thought it was pretty boring?? It was better than the Johnny Depp movie we saw last week at least! You just have to have the dry humor they incorporate into the Iron Man movies! And Captain America doesn't have any of the angst that Iron Man has or the inner conflict, so he is a more shallow character. And even though Scarlett Johansson is in Captain America, there is ZERO sexual tension. Shall I continue offering my sage thoughts about movies based on comic books?? :-). I think not!
We have some major storms moving in at midnight but, seeing as how it is now 11:41, I don't think I'm going to make my goal of being asleep before then!
You know I said yesterday that I'm all about work? Well here's how MUCH I'm all about work. My pelvic joint is out of place. I've had very painful muscle spasms and been in nearly constant pain. I can't lift my foot up from the floor by more than a foot because the joint is out and it just won't work. I can't lift it more than 9 inches without my joint hurting really bad. BUT ... I had to really consider whether or not to take the time tomorrow to go see the chiropractor! I thought, "The pain is at a bearable level now, it's bad but bearable, and you've got SO MUCH WORK to do tomorrow! I squashed that thought, but it took some effort!
I had a random thought during the movie. You know I demolished my nails again last night (?) at the Mexican food restaurant. Well, as I was sitting there is suddenly thought, "Why would you want to destroy part of your body because you are feeling stressed? This is your body! Why would you want to tear your nail off and bite off your cuticles. You want to care for your body, not tear it up!" So that was a new thought. Instead of just, "Quit doing this! This is awful! Look how terrible your nails look! What's wrong with you that you do this all the time???!" So, well see if I can roll with that and quit tearing up my nails because I love myself and I love my body and I want to take care of it well.
12:01 am. I'm running a tub of fresh water to rinse my hair and body well in clear water. I've shaved, conditioned my hair and exfoliated my skin - I love doing that! I feels so awesome smooth after that, and have a facial mask on. The only problem, though, is NOW I'M HUNGRY! I have some gluten-free bread downstairs so I guess I'll go toast some before I go to bed.
Tonight is the calm before the storm. This week is unbelievable. Farewell receptions, speeches, dinners, my husbands art show, having the direct reports over for dinner, having coffee with a couple special to us, and three of the candidates are coming in for interviews. I want to go to one interview of each, just as a spider on the wall, and then I have to give them a our of the house on Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday! Plus I think ice got some doctor appointments thrown in here and there along with a mandatory manicure! I have to go to the grocery store because I'm completely out of pet food and apple sauce: my last stop-gap before starvation! I dint think I've ever run out of apple sauce before!
So, since the week is utterly impossible, I think I'm just going to take it in stride and star calm. That's the dream anyway! Have a great week yourself! It looks like practically half the country is in for some really bad weather, so stay safe!
Cheers,
Lisa
Saturday, April 26, 2014
Day 17 - Accomplished NOTHING!!
Dear Reader,
This was a completely unproductive day. I slept late, but not crazy late. Because of my pelvic joint being out of place I can't lay On my side, so I have to stay propped up with pillows under my knees to keep me on my back. The pain got worse and worse as the day went on, but I should have thought to ice it, and that probably would have helped. I just took a long hot bath in the jacuzzi and that jet action on my back relaxes the muscles a lot and eases it up. Maybe it's relaxed enough to slip into place tonight!
I didn't want to put on my makeup or fix my hair this morning. But I did it anyway since it's one of the things I'm focusing on. As I did it I wondered why it's a problem for me to do this. I think I understand it better now. I all about working, doing, accomplishing, marking chores off my to-do list. So taking the time to put on my makeup and fix my hair and get dressed nice is time that stands between me and what I apparently think is my purpose in life ... to work. To take the time for myself to look nice is to say that I am about more than work. Taking the time to make. myself look nice forces me to put attention on myself, rather than just the jobs ahead of me. It makes me take the time to'thunk about my BEING before I let myself get about to DOING. So that's why it sets up an immediate psychological dischord in myself. Hmmmm ... interesting. So I think it is important that I do keep doing this, especially when I think it is taking up too much time from working.
I had just started my prayer time along with a cup of tea when my daughter came walking in. I knew it. I finished my prayer time and my Bible reading and then spent the rest of the day with her. She and I had ordered her some work clothes when Loft had a 40% off sale. Boy, when you apply that to their sales clothes, you can get some fantastic deals! She tried things on for me and I went through my clothes and had her try on some things I was going to give away. I have this one beautiful dres in got last year that is white, fit-and-flare with a beautiful floral print on the top and on the bottom of the skirt. She doesn't like florals at all, but I talked her into just trying it on. I heard her say, "I hate you!" as she came walking towards my bedroom! It looked beautiful on her! Mom is right yet again!
I did get some work done in my closet, changing out my seasonal clothes. But I'm leaving in more things for cool weather since I guess New York may still be cool at the first of June . The hall is a mess with totes full of clothes in all different stages. I'm giving away lots of things I have been hanging onto, thinking I would lose the five, ten, fifteen pounds needed to get back in them. No more!
I had learned that a health food store opened up in our town, so my daughter and I went to check it out. It's so darling! It's quite small right now, and is like a miniature Whole Foods. But we found lots of neat stuff and bought it. I fixed us lunch at home and we ate outside in the lovely weather. By the time she left, though, I was exhausted for some reason and had to go to bed. Slept for two hours!
I did, against all odds, get some yoga in today. I focused just on getting to the mat. I was really worried about my back so I just did some light stretching. Even just doing a downward dog hurt.
My husband had an event, so I stayed home while he was gone, but he just stayed for a few minutes. Then we watched a little tv and I got in the jacuzzi and ... here we are. I won't be able to take time with my daughter like today very soon, so I shouldn't feel like,I got nothing done. Tomorrow doesn't look good for working either. My husband is preaching at a church tomorrow. I will need to go see my mother and my husband and I are going out on a date that evening. So nothing much will get done tomorrow. I have to start showing the house on Monday morning. I don't see how I can possibly have it even neatened in time. I'm not even unpacked from the trip yet, I can't bend over to move things or put things away, and their are clothes everywhere. The candidate coming Monday is my least favorite, though, so is not goingbtomworry about it too much.
That's it for now. Just a quick check-in. Oh, one other thing. My kidneys haven't been doing much since we got back from the trip. I've noticed before that when I get too tired, they seem to just quit for a few days until I'm rested again. When I still had virtually no pee after sleeping for two hours, I got a little concerned. But after eating dinner I finally actually needed to pee! I hope you're not saying to yourself, "Too much information!" This whole BLOG is too much information! Apparently there is some medicine they can out you in that increases your output, but I hope I don't have to get on that.
Cheers!
Lisa
This was a completely unproductive day. I slept late, but not crazy late. Because of my pelvic joint being out of place I can't lay On my side, so I have to stay propped up with pillows under my knees to keep me on my back. The pain got worse and worse as the day went on, but I should have thought to ice it, and that probably would have helped. I just took a long hot bath in the jacuzzi and that jet action on my back relaxes the muscles a lot and eases it up. Maybe it's relaxed enough to slip into place tonight!
I didn't want to put on my makeup or fix my hair this morning. But I did it anyway since it's one of the things I'm focusing on. As I did it I wondered why it's a problem for me to do this. I think I understand it better now. I all about working, doing, accomplishing, marking chores off my to-do list. So taking the time to put on my makeup and fix my hair and get dressed nice is time that stands between me and what I apparently think is my purpose in life ... to work. To take the time for myself to look nice is to say that I am about more than work. Taking the time to make. myself look nice forces me to put attention on myself, rather than just the jobs ahead of me. It makes me take the time to'thunk about my BEING before I let myself get about to DOING. So that's why it sets up an immediate psychological dischord in myself. Hmmmm ... interesting. So I think it is important that I do keep doing this, especially when I think it is taking up too much time from working.
I had just started my prayer time along with a cup of tea when my daughter came walking in. I knew it. I finished my prayer time and my Bible reading and then spent the rest of the day with her. She and I had ordered her some work clothes when Loft had a 40% off sale. Boy, when you apply that to their sales clothes, you can get some fantastic deals! She tried things on for me and I went through my clothes and had her try on some things I was going to give away. I have this one beautiful dres in got last year that is white, fit-and-flare with a beautiful floral print on the top and on the bottom of the skirt. She doesn't like florals at all, but I talked her into just trying it on. I heard her say, "I hate you!" as she came walking towards my bedroom! It looked beautiful on her! Mom is right yet again!
I did get some work done in my closet, changing out my seasonal clothes. But I'm leaving in more things for cool weather since I guess New York may still be cool at the first of June . The hall is a mess with totes full of clothes in all different stages. I'm giving away lots of things I have been hanging onto, thinking I would lose the five, ten, fifteen pounds needed to get back in them. No more!
I had learned that a health food store opened up in our town, so my daughter and I went to check it out. It's so darling! It's quite small right now, and is like a miniature Whole Foods. But we found lots of neat stuff and bought it. I fixed us lunch at home and we ate outside in the lovely weather. By the time she left, though, I was exhausted for some reason and had to go to bed. Slept for two hours!
I did, against all odds, get some yoga in today. I focused just on getting to the mat. I was really worried about my back so I just did some light stretching. Even just doing a downward dog hurt.
My husband had an event, so I stayed home while he was gone, but he just stayed for a few minutes. Then we watched a little tv and I got in the jacuzzi and ... here we are. I won't be able to take time with my daughter like today very soon, so I shouldn't feel like,I got nothing done. Tomorrow doesn't look good for working either. My husband is preaching at a church tomorrow. I will need to go see my mother and my husband and I are going out on a date that evening. So nothing much will get done tomorrow. I have to start showing the house on Monday morning. I don't see how I can possibly have it even neatened in time. I'm not even unpacked from the trip yet, I can't bend over to move things or put things away, and their are clothes everywhere. The candidate coming Monday is my least favorite, though, so is not goingbtomworry about it too much.
That's it for now. Just a quick check-in. Oh, one other thing. My kidneys haven't been doing much since we got back from the trip. I've noticed before that when I get too tired, they seem to just quit for a few days until I'm rested again. When I still had virtually no pee after sleeping for two hours, I got a little concerned. But after eating dinner I finally actually needed to pee! I hope you're not saying to yourself, "Too much information!" This whole BLOG is too much information! Apparently there is some medicine they can out you in that increases your output, but I hope I don't have to get on that.
Cheers!
Lisa
Friday, April 25, 2014
Day EIGHTEEN!!!
Dear Reader,
How, when and where did I get my day count off so badly??? Eighteen days left?! That's insane. I have got more time actually, since I came get moved in until after June 1. But still, I thought I had more time. I mean, we are in the teens now! I have to show the house to presidential candidates beginning Monday and have a lot to do this weekend to be at all ready for them.
I wasn't able to get a thing done today. I was in a lot of pain last night and it was very late when I went to sleep. I didn't go downstairs to ice my back because I couldn't handle the idea of coming back up the stairs. Even today, the joint is not spasming, but it's not in place either. I can barely lift the leg enough to get it in and out of the bathtub. Ugh. At least I'm not having to ask for help.
I'm up too late because I'm still looking at decorating pictures thinking that if I just click in one more link, I'll find the perfect thing!
I has the ultrasound today. The technician kept telling me to hold my breath but would forget to tell me when I could breathe again! I see my doctor next week and will get the results and then see the nephrologist the week after that. I apparently do still have an appointment with the autonomic nervous system disorders specialist since I got a text reminder today. And I finally made an appointment with a local bone and joint kind of doctor about my right big toe. It has been hurting for months now. I can't quite pinpoint the pain, but it's pretty bad at times so I decided to have someone look at it. I'm facing up to a lot of things these days!
After the ultrasound I met with the girl I mentored before. We had a great visit and chatted for about four hours! The I ran up to a a little Mexican food place that seems to be family-owned and operated. The food, like, never came! I finally had to go find someone and tell them I was out of time and I would need it to go. I think I was there altogether for about an hour! I got nervous about twenties since my husband was waiting for me at home to watch something together, and I chewed off almost all my fingernails again! All the way to the quick. Darn!
So, I'm working on the idea of "how do I want to live my life?" Making some headway on that. Of course, the first issue is, who is "I"? My self-walls have never been very strong. But I know that I do want prayer, Bible study, meditation, exercise and yoga to be foundational in it. That's a start.
Too tired to be contemplative!
It's kind of sad, but it think,the girl I mentored and visited with today has rejected Christ. I didn't question her hard on it, but asked some questions that I hoped would help her to at least see that she has adopted some beliefs that cannot be consistent with faith in the redemptive work of Jesus. She was a new "Believer" when I started mentoring her, so I think now,that she probably wasn't fully a Christian then. Although I could SEE her heart visibly moved when I was talking about the verse where Jesus talks about the strong man who enters the house at night and steals the treasures, and that Jesus is the strong man and we are the treasures he steals from the dominion of Satan. I could see her eyes light up with joy ... so maybe, maybe she is. She wasn't raised in any religion at all and knew nothing when I started teaching her. A professor had more influence on her than I did, obviously, and led her in another direction. But the end of the story isn't written yet!
I'm very annoyed with myself for tearing off my nails and then getting lost for a while looking at fabrics online. Tomorrow's a fresh day ... if I'll just let go,of THIS day and go to sleep!
Night, night!
Lisa
How, when and where did I get my day count off so badly??? Eighteen days left?! That's insane. I have got more time actually, since I came get moved in until after June 1. But still, I thought I had more time. I mean, we are in the teens now! I have to show the house to presidential candidates beginning Monday and have a lot to do this weekend to be at all ready for them.
I wasn't able to get a thing done today. I was in a lot of pain last night and it was very late when I went to sleep. I didn't go downstairs to ice my back because I couldn't handle the idea of coming back up the stairs. Even today, the joint is not spasming, but it's not in place either. I can barely lift the leg enough to get it in and out of the bathtub. Ugh. At least I'm not having to ask for help.
I'm up too late because I'm still looking at decorating pictures thinking that if I just click in one more link, I'll find the perfect thing!
I has the ultrasound today. The technician kept telling me to hold my breath but would forget to tell me when I could breathe again! I see my doctor next week and will get the results and then see the nephrologist the week after that. I apparently do still have an appointment with the autonomic nervous system disorders specialist since I got a text reminder today. And I finally made an appointment with a local bone and joint kind of doctor about my right big toe. It has been hurting for months now. I can't quite pinpoint the pain, but it's pretty bad at times so I decided to have someone look at it. I'm facing up to a lot of things these days!
After the ultrasound I met with the girl I mentored before. We had a great visit and chatted for about four hours! The I ran up to a a little Mexican food place that seems to be family-owned and operated. The food, like, never came! I finally had to go find someone and tell them I was out of time and I would need it to go. I think I was there altogether for about an hour! I got nervous about twenties since my husband was waiting for me at home to watch something together, and I chewed off almost all my fingernails again! All the way to the quick. Darn!
So, I'm working on the idea of "how do I want to live my life?" Making some headway on that. Of course, the first issue is, who is "I"? My self-walls have never been very strong. But I know that I do want prayer, Bible study, meditation, exercise and yoga to be foundational in it. That's a start.
Too tired to be contemplative!
It's kind of sad, but it think,the girl I mentored and visited with today has rejected Christ. I didn't question her hard on it, but asked some questions that I hoped would help her to at least see that she has adopted some beliefs that cannot be consistent with faith in the redemptive work of Jesus. She was a new "Believer" when I started mentoring her, so I think now,that she probably wasn't fully a Christian then. Although I could SEE her heart visibly moved when I was talking about the verse where Jesus talks about the strong man who enters the house at night and steals the treasures, and that Jesus is the strong man and we are the treasures he steals from the dominion of Satan. I could see her eyes light up with joy ... so maybe, maybe she is. She wasn't raised in any religion at all and knew nothing when I started teaching her. A professor had more influence on her than I did, obviously, and led her in another direction. But the end of the story isn't written yet!
I'm very annoyed with myself for tearing off my nails and then getting lost for a while looking at fabrics online. Tomorrow's a fresh day ... if I'll just let go,of THIS day and go to sleep!
Night, night!
Lisa
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